I MISS YOU..SO MUCH !

I don't know what have you done to me.

I thought that things like  this get better with time. But i still need you , why is that ? . You the only image in my mind. So i still see you around. I miss you like everyday. I wanna be with you but you're away. Missing you insane , but if i got you with you , could it feel the same ? 

Word don't ever seem to come out right but i still mean them. Why is that ? It hurts my pride to tell you how i feel. But i still need to. Why is that ? It dont matter who you are , who you love. It is so simple. A feeling but it's everything.

If i could give you one thing in life, I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes , only then would you realize how special you are to me.

I miss you. K.

XOXO, 

RJ.

JESSICA : 1st Asia's Next Top Model 2013

As my predicted since first episode 1. Im so obsessed with her. Her look, her fair skin  , her face & her bones are born to be high fashion. Jessica Amornkudilok , 26 years old , origin from Thailand just won the Asia's Next Top Model for first season.

She's very optimist and soft spoken person. She's not the drama type of girl. She's very confident when front of camera. Sometimes the language is a challenge for her. But she managed to understand of single word. Since Thailand are not pratically use English for their main language.So it's a bit difficult sometimes for her. But she went through all this thing successfully. Bravo!

She reminds me to Jessica Rabbit. The most sexy and exotic look cartoon version. 

Congratulation to Jessica !

GOALS.

Yeah since im not good in love or maybe because of my appeareance. I dont know. Well. Nowadays, if you doesnt have a beautiful body. Who's adore you ?. No matter what. Anyway, i push myself to the maximum this year. I have target. I need to work out. My personal trainer asl me to burn 7000 calories . One day 600 calories. Then i have to diet. I need to calculative in delicious food. Some delicious food is not easy to burn. 1 apple contained 100 calories. Not include with nasi lemak, teh tarik, soya, and anything Malaysian's favourite food. I have to diet. I need to lose weight.

Im tired chasing people. Im tired looking for someone . Im tired seeking love. Once i reach my goal someday. Yeah i really mean it. Someday i will achieve my beautiful sexy muscular body. Then people will looking for me.People will queue up for that. I want that. Why ? Its a must before i reach 26 years old. Now im still enjoy with my 24. Owh gosh. Need a lots of thing to achieve. I need to buy a dream car , beautiful apartment , and gorgeous lover. Then i can live happily ever after like Cindarella did.LOL

Fairy tale is real. Cindarella went through her live with her step mother and sister but in the end she get married to the prince. Same goes to Tiana. She turn a green frog after she kissed a frog. But in the end. The frog is a real prince too and he is human ! Same like Poccahontas , Ariel and Jasmine. Learn and Live. Thats what we taught.

Nothing is impossible.

Heart and Game

This is what i thought and what i felt . I dont know what should i say. How can i start to recall back.
You know what. Honestly i do like you. I like you very much. And you know that. Yup. You looking for nice soul. Okay maybe we should know each other first.

Hi. Good morning. How are you today. You know what. Every morning i look down at my phone. I expect some greetings from you. Okay no greeting. So I make a first moved.. Im happy if you can reply. That the best thing and made my day. Sometimes you dissapear like a chipsmore. You beep me when you free. Okay i understand maybe you busy.

Everyday im thinking about you. Share my feeling with my closed friends. Only bestfriend. I can name them as V, B and S. They have their own thought. Advises and encourage me. I did my effort and give a hint to you. I think you know my feeling.

Gym everyday. Weekend to hometown. Working on weekday. So when do you free. I know your answer. "Sure, i'll let you know." . But you never let me know. Day by day. I feel bad. Maybe im not a lucky guy. Maybe im not handsome enough. Maybe im not muscular guy. Or maybe im local. So i keep silent .

When i quiet. You texted me. Should i reply.Tell me what should i do to make you happy. Or am i bothering you. I still keep it in  positive way. I still reply you. If you happy im happy. But are you really happy with me or when you received my messages ? Urmm i dont know.  Hope it still fresh like a roses i've sent to you before and not fading away.

I want you to STAY.

Not really sure how to feel about it. Something in the way you move. Make me feel like i can't live without you. It takes me all the way. I want you to stay.

By Rihanna feat Mikky Ekko

Beyonce Super Bowl 2013

The best performances ever in early 2013. It's reunion time for Destiny Child. Michelle and Kelly jumped to the stage with famoust hit OST for Charlies Angel and sang the hit song Single Ladies with Beyonce. Awesome !

No Valentine

There is no Valentine for this year as previous year before. Never had actually. Erm actually im planning to have it but someone is busy with event. I don't know what event it is. Someone didn't get back to me.  So i understand why. Sometimes we can't force someone to love us back. If we belong together and meant to be , it will happen. It's okay. Maybe i'm not the lucky guy.  And i've spent my Valentine night watching American idol for Top 20 Selection session and had my chicken nugget.

" Beep Beep ". Received a whatssapp at midnight. Owh it's your text. You just home ?.  And you  just realized that i inviting you for Valentine dinner and final part you just mentioned  simply sorry . Erm. i just ignore it away. If you can feel what i feel , then u understand.